oh bitter heart.. why do you bleed

Im sick of all these he says
you are squeezing me outa your life
no matter how hard i try
i just get indifference
I no longer look forward to see you
if you were my friend .. i wont even look you up
are you trying to slowly kill me
to force me to break up with you..


So do you still love me i ask
he says he is doesnt feel anything ..
he feels empty..
he is bitter...


a run along rosy route that turned into a long long walk
silence..
i couldnt think of what to say
my mind was a blank
empty .. of words... of emotions


am i indifferent to him
am i not happy to be with him anymore
am i treating him badly
ignoring his efforts to be a better
do i still love him


silence..
he taunts me to reply
my mind is still a blank
say something, i tell myself
there has to be an end
to be a conclusion here


but what do i want the ending to be
do i walk away and leave all this behind
do i ask for forgiveness


The choices in life that we are forced to make
why is life soo cruel


in the end i decided to do what is expected
to ask for forgiveness
to ask for time to change
to ask to wait till the hk trip is over
before we decided if we are fated to be


maybe a few days alone together could hep sort things out
maybe it will help put our relationship into perspective
the litmus test .. such pressure on a simple trip
meant for leisure


maybe
alot of maybes
one day the maybes will run out
what will be left of me


does he truly love me
or have i already turned his heart into stone
a bitter heart ..
a cold cold heart..
no longer will he bleed for me then
is that what i want ...


what do i want


my heart refuses to answer


fuck u
my heart says
you never listened to me anywaz..