Dare to Dream

Just visiting the booth yest with sabri and lijen
and brought them on a tour of our arduous journey
it brought back many mixed emotions, nostalgia and pride


If you happen to be in the vicinity of SMU Kopitiam
Just walk through
and be awed by the magnificence of Africa :)


Hakuna Matata


Here a collage I did of the mountain




Like Mr. Wilson our guide said
" Mountains will never meet, But people do"


~may I see you on another mountain top~

Every time in our lives have their place

So says someone when I comment:
"ahh.. To be a student again..."


ahh well.. for a no-longer-student
I have been down to school more often than some still-students this week ;p
Evidently..
All the work had got to me last week
but thanks to all who had sent e-hugs my way
and to someone
who gave me a real huge sweep-me-off-my-feet hug
nothing beats the real thing man.. I'm sorry :)
that will remain in Caiyun's Hall of Hugs for a long long time


Because I don't foresee any more tall-dark-handsome guy
sweeping me off my size5 feet anytime soon....
maybe if I buy taller heels
I might stand a better chance
;p
bah


anyways.. its good to feel the load off my back
although it was not my best
I tried my best
let the others settle the rest :p
a tad irresponsible?
perhaps ..


But I have already threw everything into the wind
gotten out my cocktail dress
and my man-eater shoes..
feeling ravenous
all ready to party..


until I realized..
my moolah aint in yet
all plans of manicure, facials, spa, dinners
came crumbling down..
*sobs*
thus this week of "Pamper Caiyun Week" came to naught
next week .. I promise myself
which will also coincide with
my self-proclaimed "pamper dians week too"
because the poor gal looked like she needs a major break too :(


HOWEVER..
noo moolah did not mean no fun
I had loads of fun nightbiking ..
to feel the burn as we ate up the hills of Singapore
*kick-ass shiok*
to discover an eye-candy
*priceless*


Discovered.. a great new chill-out place!!!
The Cheesecake cafe
down at East Coast
what can be better
renaissance meets Mediterranean meets Bali resort deco
scrumptious cheescake in all possible flavor
think: peanut butter cheesecake.. Caramel cheescake...
and great company..
*me of course*
I come with the deal.. Ok ;p
lol


and *claps* to Ben Boh
for a great performance down at Timbre
we had good "cheap" wine
amazingly thin crust pizza
good company and of course
great music
it was really ..
"happy" ;p


although everytime..
everything I'm "happy"
people think I'm drunk
sad sad sad..
perhaps no one sees the real cloudy..
or it could also mean
I am seldom truly comfortable-happy
with many people..


lalalalala
ahh well..
though I seem to have developed a taste for red wine
being a staunch white-wine person.. till like last month
it is disturbing to find that
I long for the deep, rich taste of red
and the buzz that it brings with it
....
I hope I'm not turning into an alcoholic..


whoopee news flash: my pay just came in:
lalalallalala
happiness
thou nothing beats a hug
a real one of course :)



~ you occupy my mind ..~

*stormy*

I never thought ill say this
but i am tired
i am sooo soo tired
my brain is numb
my heart is aching from emptyness
cloudy needs a hug*

poo

To forever 21: wine like water ..

A Saturday morning of effort
with the pisco sour still sloshign in my system
wishing I was rock-climbing instead ;p
the fruits of my labor:
Posters for SMUay THAI..









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Never drank soo much wine in such a short span of time
It was truly a festive week
While the crazy partying of the past week
had turned towards more Chill-Out mellow this week
The enjoyment dervived is just as rich


WELL it does seem like there is a theme every week
doesn't it ;p LOL
Rita's surprise party
was truly a surprise
which is unusual for smux's track record
LOL
but her sister was really great
with hor douves from Marmalade Pantry
chocolate fondue fountain with lots of fresh fruits
and LOTs of wine...


jackie and gang.. with their helium balloons antics
performed an acapella of the birthday song with
helium-pitched voices!!
like a group of ah beng chipmucks ;p
and I have never seen Joel moved sooo fast
to smash the cake into rita's face..
~ its like watching a lazy cat lounging
and "foom" ..the next thing you know
it has a mice in its mouse


the poor girl had cake in her hair, on her shirt, all over her face...
thou I must say that she really smelled good after that
*yumm...
~ the latest scent: Chocolate Cake..
makes every girl irresistible"~


it wasn't till later ..
while chilling in the aftermath..
did her sis point out that she had cake
in her ears!!!
eeew..
if only we had a hot hunk there
to lick it out for her ...
next year.. ok gal.. hehe
;p


The supposedly wine party the next day
had dwindled till it hung on precarious fate
but still the few of us
with a thirst for the nectar of gods
persevered with dogged determination
while I couldn't contribute any wine
zhuang and I probably bought enough cheese to feed
a whole lab of mice (whatever that means)
which probably would have provided some entertainment
for the huge fat resident cat there
its tail, an entity by itself
*meow*


fruit and nut cheese rocks!!
soo does feta and Brie and cambered
just when I though I ate enough cheese to last me
till next year
and maybe a half ..


we ordered a huge cheese platter at Simin's Bdae Dinner!
squeak!
One Rochester (www.onerochester.com)
was relly chi-chi chill
with veryyyy friendly service ;)
We opened like 3 bottles of wine
my fav~
Saint Claire with a berry aftertaste..


Simin ordered 2 cakes from Awfully chocolate
with guess what written on it ?
:: Forever 21 ::
woot!!!
you rock gal !!!
and thank you for the great evening


That will be the first of many
high-crasss evenings to come ok
..its time we upgrade from
SMU kopitiam ...
hehe


And that was how i spent my week
~on a high spirits... ;p
but not before i took some time to have dinners with my mum
its been a long time since we shared a meal alone
considering that all my crazy antics
have probably drove her to paranoial ..
I should balance my play with some family bonding
then she will know me better and
maybe trust my judgment more...


I am not a person who easily opens out
im slow burn


I shall end with a shout out
to all the women in my life
you all rock! ;)
*muacks*

<3<3<3

My "work"

=yippy finally posted the final postcard!
thanks to sabri and jen for your feedback=


What kept me busy over the weekend:
Here is a preview of this season's Muay Thai Marketing Collection
Currently still under "work in progress"
It will make its runway debut on Vivace

::Postercards::











:: Poster ::





Hmm i know there is more to do..
> more posters and emailers
> Banner
> Kilimanjaro Magazine Layout
all due by friday !!!
and of course there is my "real" work


Yesterday left me abit lacking of inspiration
soo many things pending
it felt like i was back in school
things piling up till im gasping for air


Its times like this that you yearn for something more
than a hot chocolate and a soft bed
I need a muse to amuse me
to excite me
to push my creative limits
to open up my mind


I know it sounds alittle dirty
perhaps it is mean to be....
lol


Alright
i shall refrain from sounding anymore
like a sexually fustrated old lady ..
toodels!

6.35pm and still in office

Listening to "Collide" for like the what?... 48th time?
over and over and over and over and over...
again..

my very own spanish rainbow

~the post that never got out~

And to think I was sad to come back from KL soo soon
But I guess fate had other things planned for me..
a whirlwind week of fun, laughter, bimbo-ness, emo singing
and best of all ..
cathing up with friends..


Friends who had been away...
never seen for months
Friends who had never gone away
but still never got round to meeting
Friends whom I have never met
But made along the way


Sentosa with the trekking people
had seemed abit werid at first
but the universal bitching game
is the ultimate ice-breaker
and regardless of having sand up your butt
seawater in your eyes
kicking mervyn many times in the shin
while doing vivcious soccer tackles
nothing beats the amazing crap said
with Huifen and Xingyu holding the table
I <3 the trekking gals
who needs guys ;p


the theme of gal power followed
with some exotic dancing on the butterfactory dance floor
with cora, sabrina and yours truely
cora rocks as the hoochie mama !!
i am tempted ot be her lesbian pimp
woot!
their shared gift for me was a pinstrip black hat
i cant wait to pair it with:
black pants, white shirt, black corset and black killer heels
woooo
a whip would help finish the look
purrrfectly *meow*


More emo singing followed with KTV
im still moved by Melvin..
i swear he gets better everytime
and i seem to be listening to emo songs nowadays
I wonder why
hopefully its just PMS
and not something stupid like ....
like wishful thinking ;p


an email reminded me of something
that brougth much heartache
which I had said before to certain people
of which they shared my view
and which I will say again:
He is blind
and to think i thought so highly of him
I just hope the best for him


some things you can stop
some thing you cant stop
some things you can stop but dnt know where to start


welll as KH said
loves blindfolds you
hmm ....
it must be a pretty F*ing huge blindhold i guess


anywaz.. it was a great supper yest
from bishan to thomson to geylang to yishun and back again
to careen around turns at 100km/hr
controled power.. woohoo!


I love the Oysho tube all the way from Barcalona
thou i was hoping for lacy underwear ..
but that rainbow-hued-sweetness
is cute too.. ;p


And all the food is making me fat :(
to gym to gym this little piggy goes
But first
to MOS it will make a detour first!


come on peopl!
unleashed that inner animal at the MOS cage!!
*oink*!
unfortunately
i think my inner animal is a pig
;(
i will get slaughtered then.....



in what consideration set are you?
we all have our own
so how do we know when is there
an overlap
a subset
or a exclusive set
or are you...an outlyer....

Alone Again... Naturally ...

Being lonely being alone
that's kinda new for me
Funny for someone who enjoys solitude...
but usually in the proximity of the next human being


So when finally got thrown into a foreign situation
in a foreign land
sitting in a foreign bed..
soaking in the quietness that solitude brings...


The lack of the sound of the breathing of another human being
while when present... might seem negligible
But when absent... leaves a huge awning void
in which static sounds flows into


I suddenly feel lonely...


But loneliness is something I have to get use to right?
Not because I want to ..
But because we all have to be alone at some point in our lives
whether we like it or not..


So while walking down dark streets,
While walking along the dark hotel corridors,
While walking into a dark hotel room,
I half expect to be part of some horror movie..
amazingly embarrassing I must say...
to have braved the jungle nights alone
but to fear the dark in a city full of lights
....


However, KL is not without its charms
the night air brings romance to mind
But in my mind was where it stayed
the inviting chi-chi bars
the twinkling nightscape
seen in its full glory from my hotel room
with the KL twin towers raising up magnificently
~glowing efferverscent cosmopolitan


As I sink into my bath tub full of bubbles
with a hot cuppa tea
and my Terry Pratchett
I think I can start enjoying such a solitude
But then..
where are my wine, chocolates and strawberries?
and definitely ..
where is the hot dude to soap my back..


Fresh from the bath ..
with more tea ( yes very British,I know ;p )
watching "Buttons" on MTV
as I snuggled up into the soft white sheets
that engulfed me in its satin coolness
I wonder again..
where are my wine, chocolates and strawberries?
and the hot sex that comes with it...


The setting was perrrfect
But alas the company was lacking somewhat
I guess there's always my mango shopping bags
to hug to sleep at night... ;p
LOL