Alone

Loving a person who can't love you back,
Is way lonelier than living alone....
~Grey's Anatomy


=as taken from ah kow's blog=


hmm
sighz..
in the end..
we are all alone
arent we


alone in a crowd
alone in a group
alone in a pair
alone by ourselves


solidarity is a fact of life

Renjani Photo Log

My Journey up Ranjani: Part 4~ Day 6 & 7

Finally Bali for R&R
I wish R&Rs was longer
next time we promise to plan for a 3 day climb
and 7days R&R
lol

First stop: Daddy's Cafe
for a huge Aussie Brekafast
yums!



And we are off to the beach








Surfer-wanabees ;p



and to end it off
a surfer cafe for dinner


Pictures taken by a mabok photographer






and before we know it
its time to say goodbye
to our comfy hotel room



Thats it...
althou loads of other photos
make up this wonderful experience
i dont think they will ever be enough
to express all that i felt
;)


cheers to beautiful Bali
and to its friendly, hospitable people

Renjani Photolog

My journey up Renjani: Part 3~ day 4 & 5
Summmit Push -- View from the top




Summit Sunrise




In daylight ;) after a long hard push ..
the snot, the fustration, the fear of falling into black oblivion..
it was all worth it




Hiding from frigging cold wind at the top .. brrrrr..
Followed by a slow decent to admire the amazing view
and photo-whore ;p












and down we go .. to sunny Bali !!
surf, sand and shopping !
yummy

*short news flash*

yippy !
Rinjani(yes Mr.Po.. i hope im spelling it right this time ;p)
Photo Log Part 2 is out~
Partly due to lots of patience
and partly due to the fact that
ill rather do anything but my research work
at the mo.


soo please scroll a few posts down to see it :)


grrr
im feeling the side effects of the Dimox tablet
its suppose to help prevent AMS (altitude sickness)
however in saving me from headaches
im getting diarroea :(


soo as Eug says:
you want to lau sai or to have AMS?
hmm tough choice there
*scratch head*


Going to meet dians at the gym soon
*waves*
im feeling strong
after dance and rock climbing yest
but i wish i got more time to boulder more
;p there is a urgh to climb more
to exert more
to feel the burn in the arms
but looks like i wont get to do it until i come back from Kili
sobzzz


*sniff sinff*
yesterday i was hit by a certain fear
a fear that i have not bought enuf stuff for kili
i really dnt feel that i have
i feel ill-prepared
but limited funds calls for some sacrifice
i was gazing at my mummy's credit card
in my hands yesterday
it was so tempting to buy the whole shop
*sighz*


i hate the cold
i cant even tahan being in a air con room
of like 16 degrees


i was imagining myself
dying out there
in the snow
in africa
...
brrrrr....


i think i watched too many disaster movies
:(
but the fear is there
constant and nigging at me
...


*bah*

i fear
i fear
i fear


but when i express the fear to people
it sounds trivia
like in hot sultry Sinagpore
the idea of freezing to death
just cannot be fathom...


boo ..
i fear the unknown
but does the unkown fear me ?

Extremist

Met Robin for dinner yest..
and althou we dont meet up often
he still found a need to gripe
and pull a damper on the whole mood


Somehow .. we ended up talking about fashion
and he said clothes are now to the point of indecency
that women today are wearing clothes..
but still seem naked


while I try to point to the fact that
in the end we are born without clothes
and in fact the reason clothes came about
other than all the part about Adam and Eve
and the apple and the shame ...
was probably due to some powerful selfish man
who wants to keep his women to himself
and therefore went about dictating
that clothes should be worn for modesty


But what is modesty
why is it that we need to be ashamed our our naked selfs
the questions intrigues me
from a sociology point of view
but he refuses to be drawn into a discussion
on the evolution of society
instead
a he gave a tirade of how he knows many women out there
who chosses to dress modestly for their own sake
and how ..I .. tend to dress to the extreme


In fact it bacome a point of how ..
I tend to do everything to the extreme
OKAY ..
so apparently .. i dress indecently
i committe myself to too many things
i shop to extreme
i trek to the extreme
i work to the extreme
i throw caution to the wind and jump into things
and end up giving up on other things
~like our relationship


okayyyy
soo in the end everything is always about him..
but i was tired
it was a old arguement
and i felt very tired
after being put down so many times in one day


soo in the end ..
i am not capable
~just crazy
i do not have a good dress sense
~ just trashy
i do not have a balanced life
~ just selfish


THANK YOU .. i feel soo good as a person now...
he is SUCH FUN to be with
*wheee.. twirls fingers in the air*


i am quiet
i am tired
i am sick of people trying to judge
and i am begining to loose a sense of myself


do people actually think that lowly of me..
usually i dnt give a shit
but its times like these
that you reel back in shock
and wonder what does the world think of you


haiz.. *chants*
this is my space
this is my space
this is my space
*breath*