to see what we want to see.. to hear what we want to hear

while trying to load more of my Ranjani pics
I gave up halfway
the constant disconnecting of my comp
is making the process tedious..
shall do it when im more patient ;p
and more sleep ..


More thoughts have poped up
that requires some attention
before i forget abt them altogether
many "bonding" talks have been had
and as usual
its half gossipy and half personal
.. ;p


some have led to some insights
or in a way set the path to some cerebral activity
that linked certain abstract feelings together
to reach upon a point of conclusion
that can be safely said to be a new perspective


while helping a certain confuse young man
clear his many-segmented heart
i cant help but to reflect
on my own predicament
and the many subjects that come into play
i only thank god that i am not a guy


From the tahan ..
i can only say :
All guys want to be heros
its just who they choose to be heros to
~ so gals should stop complaining about the lack of heros
~ and wonder who will want to be their hero
but the problem with this age old game of love is that
in the end
everybody is just knocking on the wrong door
soo in the end we should all just take a step back and
and backtrack
then everything will be right ..
rigth?.....


if only life was so simple


give me just one night
to have him by my side
to bask in his essence
and keep him close by
but i had that one night
and now i noe that
it was not mine to take
and it had never ever been mine
~cloudy 3.40 pm .. walking stoned~


soo after sciccors curry rice
and yummy ah balling
and a long talk with De
through a disection of my inner psyhic
and of many others
i have come to a conclusion
finally
after soo long
that i am ready to close that final chapter
of a long over-due book
and throw it back to the return bin


as for u ....


i was hoping you would be a better man
but i think
in the end
all is just a dream
and i just want to wake up now


=according to De=
bec im soo strong..
and am kinda guy-ish
i need:
someone confident
capable in many ways
both in sports and in interlect
able to engage me in deeper reflections
and amuse me with a store of views and stories
i need someone i can respect
whom i can depend on
i cannot stand emotional dependency
and i must be sure that he is capable of
providing me with what I want in life in future


=i would say=
his analysis is pretty sport on
pehaps as an after-though
~ he needs to excel in at least one area...
a sport .. an area of academic...
~ he needs to be a confident driver
to like speed but yet have full control of his car
i think that tells alot of a guy
~ to be spontanous and never staid


looking at it all
seems like a tall order
i do not think guys like these are hard to find
but as i say
it all depends
if they want to be your hero
BUT ...if the guy is soo good
what makes him think he will want you
ahhhhh
therein lies the ultimate question
Am i good enuf..?


whatdo yah think babes ??
am i asking for too much ..
*ponder.. ponder*


i know i have bore u all long enough
and soo i shall no longer dwell on such a
ego-manic topic
for i am NOT high-EMO
*according to Mr. Po:
it means~ requiring high emotional support*
lol


chaus
~to bath.. to climb .. to eat
if only life is always soo easy ...