-never again-

the sanctity of this blog has been violated
i feel somehow violated
is there something call blog molestation?


how will i ever want to write in it again
to paint the pictures in my mind
although they might not be a word by word replay of my life
every word i write
is a representation of my musings
blue as it may seem sometimes
it is still my beloved mind


i did not write whatever i write as a cry for attention
i did not publicised it with loud neon words shouting "read me"
it is a place for mi to share my thoughts with my friends
and whoever who chance upon it by fate
who hopefully will be rewarded with something that i can offer
my own perspective


trust is of the utmost importance to me
and if there is no trust
there is no point


everything must have a point
even in paintings
there is a always a point of reference
or the painting will seem flat
without depth
or perspective
2D is not how we want to live our lives
do we?


so should you actually try to pry again
to sneak a look at my conversations
that you are not privy to
and invade my privacy
then let me say
i am sorely dissapointed
and there is no point
for i do not like flat paintings


i do not wish to self-censor
any more than i already am doing
please give me the space
to paint my own pictures
regardless of how they turn out to be
for i want to be an artisit
at least in my own world


free is the expression of oneself
the freedom to fly beyond our earthly bounderies
but should there be chains
pulling us down with responsibilities
than we will all be like the collector's butterflies
pinned on a display
beautiful
but only for the pleasure of others