Farewell ...

Goodbye
I dint get a chance to say i love you
but actually i have never had
neither did you


But in both our hearts
we know that we have a bond that is beyond words


I thank you for these 23 years of care
And for the wonderful childhood you have given me
the memories will last forever
deep in the burrows of my heart

goodbye grandad
I may not be religious
and I claim not to believe in life after death
But in my heart I really do hope
you will find happiness somewhere
with grandma by your side

I finally understand the deep eloquence of those 3 words
>>Rest In Peace


may you


for it is for the rest of eternity.....


* a quite pause please .. to reflect on our lives and recollect all those that we love and bask in the deep feeling of being loved ...*


I am not the type to say "I love you"
not even to my parents
I believe in actions more than words
soo take sometime today to spend a moment with your love one
even for just a moment
the deep sense of connection can transcend words

and S.H.E sang ~ you are only lonely...

The msn conversation went like this :


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~hehe still no Danna
~nobody want


Junyuan says:
~is not nobody want
~is nobody can afford


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~haha why
~not very ex what ;p


Junyuan says:
~really hahaha.. how much


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~haha err once in a while feed me.. buy me nice kimono..
~bring me out to watch sumo wrestling can liao


Junyuan says:
~hahahaha sounds reasonable


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~yah lor
~dunoe why pppl dun wan


Junyuan says:
~ppl blind


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~hahaha
~yea i guess.. many many blind ppl out there


Junyuan says:
~ALOT


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~u are not


Junyuan says:
~i have good taste


Sugar Sissy 1 says:
~yes definately ;p
~for that i will help u earn more $$


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I love my pimp daddy ;p
lol
okiezz..
seriously
why there are alot of blind men out there??
whywhywhywhywhy


they see you but they dont see you


when when when will they see...


i cannot wait all my life


i have been waiting all this time


*when will you look up into the sky and see me in the horizon..
before i fly out of view and out of your life*

AHhhh CHoooo!

Woke up to a huge sneeze today
Gzeee
What a rousing start to a day
my eyes refuses to open fully
my eyelids obstinately glued together
forcing me to move around the house half-blind


you know... one of those days...
when your mind is awake but your eyes remain stubbornly asleep
The constant battle between both
causes a series of bumps around the kitchen
while you try your best to function in semi darkeness.
Hopeing that its your toothbrush that you are using
and not one that is for cleaning the mold off the tiles..
Thats its coffee you are making
and not weird concoction of milo, salt and floor.


Those are the days when you would gladly go back to sleep with your eyes..
But alas ..
back on the computer doing research for Proton Cars
Soo exciting .. ;p
I could hardly contain my excitment
my hands are shaking


noo..
hmm i think its just the coffee
extra strong with a hug dash of milo
a heartlanders mocha ;p


We are supposed to do an advertising project on Proton
and I tell that to people
they laugh and say its hopeless
what encouragement ;p


They say: isnt that suppose to be a lousy Malaysian Car
yes we know that
and the challenge would be coming up with a rebranding effort for it
but they are like ..
But is a Malaysian Car !
okie enough said


the first spirit of fight and fire are gone
leaving us with abit of dejection
and a huge headache
good luck to us....


But nevermind me and kb shall perserver
and come out with something edgy for it
and we are suppose to slodge through it for the CNY
sooo much for a festive season


Maybe we can do a "ah beng" branding for it
and it will be the next EVO or Subaru WRX..
our tag line would be *Zng Your Car*
hmmmmmm


*had a serious moment outside my door yest*
I think someone is not very happy
to play such a small role in my life
but i really have no time !!


The past 2 weeks have been crazy
but soo many things happened ..


~Grand Openning: Days of hard work and time put in for 1 minute of fame
and even then ..
i could hardly keep the smile on my face
i dont think im a born performer
but nobody believes it when i say im shy ;p


But the rock concert after that was pretty fun
thou i think its the was voldka
and the beer


i tried to teach alvin, hoseng and bk to play drinking goggles
why i do not know too..
for i actually suck at drinking games..
but i found someone worse than me..
hoseng ..
heheh
good to feel unstupid for short while
but they always learn ;p
somehow guys pick it up faster
maybe im just slow ;p

I AM SLOW
hahahah
in Darwin's theory of the survival of the fittest
ill probably be extinct

but im not.
soo ..
hmm maybe i have evolve some other features of adpatation that i am unaware off
i wonder what they are
hmmm

okie.. dance beckons..
++ to be continued ++

* my heart skipped a beat*

damnnnn

Another insightful insight

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift


What does your birth month say about you?
brought to you by Quizilla


which according to bk is rather true.. i agree with him ;p

* i wana slip into oblivion*

Sleeepy
but cant sleep
work to do
work to do


There is a fission of fustration
in my heart
I feel like yelling out loud
Enough is enough !!!


If only this world will fade away
but not to another day
to stay as it is while i contemplate
the reason for my state


I have an obsession that cannot be fulfilled
it eats into my very being
I just wana get drunk
and slip into oblivion


Depraved
for passion
untamed, unreigned, unrestrained passion
to consume my very being
and make me whole


GHM


~disclaimer: this is not meant to be a poem or a song or any form of artistic expression..those are best left to the experts or the seriously disturbed.. whichever comes first...
this is just the way i think ~

:: Rain before Dawn ::

:: Prologue ::

Heard some really sad news yest.
Althou i sorta suspected ..
but never thought of asking ..


:: Main ::

Ahh..
good things never last..
but as they say
is it better to own it once
than never to have own it before ??

~Lets all look forward to the next dawn

So do not fear the loss
For a forsaken sunrise
will lead to a regretful sunset

Regardless of how saddening a sunset may be
at least you have seen the beauty of a sunrise
and it might be enough ..
just


me..
I rather live in my world
where
for one moment
just one moment
everything is captured in a snapshot
in my mind... that would be enough

i hope

i am moving on..
keeping a snapshot in my alblum of many
perfect sunrises ...

for now


:: Epilogue ::

But can I do that for the rest of my live
living for each perfect snapshot
and then not owning it
fustrating
it is..

indecisive..greedy... weak
would be what my friends think

maybe..
maybe not


:: Author's Notes ::

~im just a photographer in the journey of love
care to pose for mi ?

~An apology to those who do not understand a feaking thing i was writing about..
(while i highly doubt that you will continue reading till this part of post)
Due to the sensitive nature of the issues touched upon ..
the author has decided to write in highly metaphorical sense
and also as Eric has pointed out..
i am poetic by nature.. ;p
yeah right
more like highly nonsensical by nature

Thanks to : Jeremy
who helped on the spelling of "Epilogue"
*However he holds no responsibility to other spelling mistakes in this post*
The author is just dyslexic by nature.

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OAC gathering

soo gald to see my OAC mates again..
this is the first gathering with the same number as the gals
which is amazing considering that we have 5 guys and 12 gals in the club ;p

and onli with them can i eat Seoul Garden ...
althou it wasnt particularly good food
but it has its memories .. :)